Saturday, November 29, 2014

Boldness with Age - right or wrong

Sometimes my young children say what ever comes to their mind. They don't think first, they just blurt it out with no thought to the consequence of their words.

We hope that over time we learn to control those words and even change our hearts so those thoughts aren't even in our mind.  

But, it seems that sometimes as people get older, they revert back to what my Irish family calls the "No Filter" stage.  We just start blurting things out because we:
  • are tired
  • are angry
  • feel we can speak our mind because they should respect us 
  • think that we are so much wiser because of the life we have lived
  • and more reasons
I'm 41 yrs old now and I feel a boldness and confidence that was much harder to come by at a younger age.  There is a sense of experience and wisdom that controls my actions and thoughts instead of unknowing or insecurity.  

But, my confidence can be misunderstood as pride, arrogance, "no filter".  

So with age comes:
  • More love
  • More compassion
  • More patience
  • More humbleness
  • More mercy
  • More grace
  • More kindness
  • More goodness
  • More faithfulness
  • More self control
We cannot use our age, whether young or old, to be an excuse for bad behavior. Although I understand that the young have a lot to learn and we should be understanding to their growing and maturing, we still cannot excuse sin.   We just change how it is dealt with.  

As we get older our character should be even more exemplary.  Our light should shine brighter, not dimmer.  We should not use our life experiences to make others feel dumb or immature.

Treat others the way you want to be treated.  Love the Lord your God with all your heart soul mind and strength.  

1 Corinthians 13 is an amazing chapter in the bible. It says we do so many great and sacrificial things but without love it means nothing.  Try reading it everyday for a month and do that one month a year.  It will transform your life and those around you.

No greater love has man than this - to lay down his life for his brother.
Can we even lay down our mouth, attitude, and our right to be upset for others?

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Monday, November 3, 2014

Reaping What We Have Sown Can Be Very Hard

My good seeds I have sown have not fallen on shallow ground, but will produce a harvest.

I know there are some people saying bad things about me.  I haven't heard it out loud, but I can tell.

Why am I surprised?  I knew it would happen.

My work is in the world - so of course they are going to talk bad about me and spread lies and judgement.

I sought God on it and he showed me that sometimes we reap what we sow.  

So where did I sow this?  

Did I tell things I shouldn't have?

Did I betray someone's trust?

Did I gossip?

Sadly, I am guilty.

So now, I am reaping what I have sown.  How it saddens my heart that I did those sins.

I'm truly having a hard time getting past it.  
I asked the person to forgive me. 
I asked God to forgive me.

A relationship with a person should be based on trust, but what do we do when one betrays the other? Now that I have betrayed this person's trust, that person is speaking ill of me.  
I deserve it, yet I hope our friendship would be better than that.

I know the devil wants to divide God's children and I have decided to fight for this friendship.

I know I will have to deal with people speaking poorly of me - I sowed it.

But, I have also sowed love, sacrifice, obedience, and good will.  
Thankfully I have sown good more than evil.

I will pull up the weeds and throw them in the fire.  I am a warrior on earth and heaven so I will not let the devil win in this battle.

I could lay down and dwell in my guilt and the sadness of people speaking ill of me, or I can put on my armor of God and fight for the call of God on my life.

My flesh wants to cry.  My flesh wants to dwell on it.  

There is no condemnation in Christ Jesus.

If you confess your sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and cleanse us from all unrighteousness.

I will forgive those who speak ill of me.  I can only hope my seeds of forgiveness will produce a huge crop that others will reap, and I will too.

As I prayed about this, I realized I couldn't apply the scriptures where Jesus was persecuted by those closest to him because he was persecuted without sin.

I am persecuted because of my sin.

So, I look to Paul, who persecuted christians and did he suffer for it.

But, I am a believer, Paul was not when he persecuted Christians.

David was a believer and he persecuted other believers who trusted him.

He had to deal with the consequences - as will I.

So, how do I deal with it?

With sackcloth and ashes. 
With a repentant heart.
With sadness and remorse.

But, then I have to move forward and pray for restored relationship and that the other person will forgive me.

I have to move forward and know that this will not be the last time I will sin.

I have to move forward and know that I will fail those who trust me and love me.

I have to move forward and hope that those I care for and love will return that care and love even when I am not perfect.

I have to move forward and know that those who I do wrong will have a choice to make -
to forgive me
or not to forgive
to trust me again
or not to trust me again
to know that I almost never gossip and it was a one time mistake
or hold it against me and bring my reputation to ruin.

I am not a gossip.
I am not a liar.
I can be trusted.
I tell the truth.

So, let my normal character be remembered and not my transgressions.

Saturday, November 1, 2014

I've Earned It

I turned 41 this year and I feel like I have earned every day of it!  

I don't want to be 18.
I don't want to be 30.

I like my age.

I've earned it!

Someone told me that days fly by.

Not for me.  

I look back and I lived every day.
My days, weeks, months, and years have been so full that I feel I've lived three life times.

I like the confidence I have in who God has made me and what I can do through Him

And what He can do through me.

God sends me people daily who encourage me and lift me up
to propel me forward to my daily destiny.

I don't know what today will bring
but I am ready for it.