Tuesday, October 25, 2016

Beating

I have many faults, one being beating myself up.  My husband is a perfectionist when it comes to our home and property.  I joke with him about being OCD - Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.  Yet, I wonder if there is an inner OCD - or maybe better called

OBD - Obsessive Beating Disorder

I beat myself up, sometimes for hours or days, over mistakes.  If I offend someone I can feel bad for an excessive amount of time. I relive it, rethink it.  Then I consider ways I could have done it different.  Should I do something to fix it?  Do I need to be extra kind now and apologize numerous times?

I'd love the day to come that I:
  1. can admit I am wrong
  2. say I'm sorry
  3. make restitution if necessary
  4. move on
OFD - Obsessive Forgiveness Disorder 
I want this!

My hike at Zion National Park. We had hikes hours to get here, up steep slopes and cliff edges.
It was worth the journey - just very hard to get there.