Tuesday, October 25, 2016

Beating

I have many faults, one being beating myself up.  My husband is a perfectionist when it comes to our home and property.  I joke with him about being OCD - Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.  Yet, I wonder if there is an inner OCD - or maybe better called

OBD - Obsessive Beating Disorder

I beat myself up, sometimes for hours or days, over mistakes.  If I offend someone I can feel bad for an excessive amount of time. I relive it, rethink it.  Then I consider ways I could have done it different.  Should I do something to fix it?  Do I need to be extra kind now and apologize numerous times?

I'd love the day to come that I:
  1. can admit I am wrong
  2. say I'm sorry
  3. make restitution if necessary
  4. move on
OFD - Obsessive Forgiveness Disorder 
I want this!

My hike at Zion National Park. We had hikes hours to get here, up steep slopes and cliff edges.
It was worth the journey - just very hard to get there.


Wednesday, August 17, 2016

Second Wind - adventure in mid life


My husband doesn't get it.  He doesn't understand why I want to start to do more adventurous things.  It might have something to do with:

  • I met him when I was 17 yrs old
  • I got married 3.5 months later - just after turning 18 yrs old
  • I was pregnant 4 months later
  • I kept having kids until 2009
  • My youngest is 7 now
  • I'm 43 and still feel good and have energy
  • I've given my life to serving my husband and children
  • I'm remembering who I am - as Sheri - not only as a wife and mother
I found out I love rock crawlers and Jeeps!  We went to the Easter Jeep Rally in Moab, Utah.  I loved it!! Can't wait to go back and go for a ride!






Saturday, August 13, 2016

Simple Life


It's the moments we get away, taking time to enjoy nature and the beauty around us. Life can get so complicated but we need to STOP
and seek and hunger for the simple joys of life - joys that don't depend on other people, circumstances, or weather. :)

Find one today.

Monday, January 4, 2016

A Year of Trials and Tribulation

What a rough year. 

It seems that this was my year of personal reflection, growth, and change. For years I cared for my husband while he was sick and stuffed my feelings and pain deep inside. When those feelings come to the surface and then the nasty rotten devil tries to use every person and thing to destroy me - well, it makes for a rough year. And, I'd like to share with you that I was strong, courageous, and handled these attacks with grace and mercy - but I can't.  I wasn't a shining example of an overcoming woman. I failed. I stumbles. I groped my way through this valley of the shadow of death.

Am I doing better? Yes, I am overcoming. 

Did it take a long time?  Yes, too long.

Is it over?  Heck no. 

Thought I was over the hump, but I figured out this past week that I'm still in the thick of it.

So often we get to hear from women on their success but I am here 
to be brave and share my failures.

Will I overcome?  Will I survive?  Absolutely.  

I'm inviting you to join me in this roller coaster of a journey.

Yes that's me in Vegas, wishing I had a limo instead of walking forever to my van.
No I wasn't gambling or getting "wild". Just there for some work :)