Monday, November 2, 2015

Change

Utah skies. Sometimes it seems dark but if we just look up we will see where our hope comes from.
There are 

days

moments

breaths

that seem to change our lives.

I've had many lately...

Six hours of prayer to help me through the hurts of the past year

A moment in the shower where I made a choice to not be hurt so easily

A breath of peace to bring calm to a situation


While I have much to learn and much to change
I am on the right path.




Wednesday, October 14, 2015

Is what they say the truth about me?

Such beauty is dry places
#Cedar Breaks National Monument
#Utah


How do I know when what people are saying about me is true or not?  

Of course, I don't want to be in denial.  
I know I'm far from perfect and don't handle everything right.

Am I that horrible person they say I am?

This is what I've been called

spiteful
liar
deserving of being yelled at100 times
failure
arrogant
selfish
unforgiving
don't forget

and more

For months this spring, I let myself agree with them.  My soul was distraught and I knew I was at one of the lowest points of my life.

I would hear their words over and over and I came into agreement with them.

I am a failure
I am a liar
I am arrogant
I am selfish
I am horrible
I am awful
I am unforgiving

Over months, God reminded me how much He loves me and while I am not perfect 
He died for me anyways.

Those accusations came to destroy me and the call on my life.  While I needed to make changes in my life and who I was, those names are not me.  It's easy to say that all the bad things said about me aren't true, but I want to face them and ask God if there is any truth and what do I need to change.  Face reality, face truth if there be some.

I was just beginning to come out of that oppression when this past weekend 
I was told again

I deserved to be yelled at 100 times
I was selfish
I was awful

Was I?
If I was I didn't mean to be.

A few things I do know is that I need to change some things because I can't move on with what God wants me to do and have these accusations come at me. I'm not strong enough.

So, I will tell God my concerns and no one else.  I will not share my heart with those who would trample on it and use it against me.

I will keep a smile on my face when I do not want to.
But I can have my emotions in my heart and at the cross.

God will be my armor to protect me from false accusations yet in His love and mercy will help me face the truth and make changes when I need to.

I will be slow to speak and quick to hear.

I didn't realize how horrible I was.  
I guess I will work on it.... 



Sunday, June 14, 2015

Getting Married and He Doesn't Know!

Gonna get myself back in shape to look good in my wedding dress!


To those who have stayed faithful to reading my posts, no matter how randomly I put them on, I have a huge announcement! 

I'm getting married!

Yes, I am!

My husband doesn't know. I'm not going to tell him either.

Now, don't call the psychiatric ward yet. I will be explaining over the next 6-7 months. I'm hoping to get married in January and then take the honeymoon I never got.

I'm so excited. I'm going to get my extra weight off and
get in shape so I look good in those nighties!

There are some things I need to change inside of me, I want to be my best for my new husband.

I want him to think I'm great - so, I'll go the extra mile to impress him and please him.

New Love.

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and 

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Saturday, June 13, 2015

You are not alone. Be a light in the darkness.

So many people feel alone.
We can't forget them. We have to be available to hear, see, help.
Sometimes I feel I can barely get
through my day much less help
someone else. How can I, when I feel like I have so much to change, can help someone else? I think we need to just listen. Not everyone wants advice. They just want someone to pray with them and care. Maybe cook a meal, take them out for coffee, or comment on their post. Reach out to someone every day. Just do something little and it can change a life.

Friday, March 13, 2015

Hope is not Lost

It seems, at times, that hope is gone, 

All things are lost.


Sometimes there are things in our life we need to let go of.

But sometimes there are things worth fighting for.

Look for glimpses of hope to carry you on as you wait for the final victory.

Faith
Hope
Love

Thursday, March 12, 2015

Too Much To Do

AHHHHHHHHH   

I HAVE TOO MUCH TO DO!

I CAN'T GET IT ALL DONE!

AM I DOING TO MUCH?

WHOSE LIST AM I TRYING TO COMPLETE?

IS IT MY LIST?

IS IT MY BOSS' LIST?

IS IT MY FAMILY'S LIST?

THE BEST QUESTION IS -

WHAT IS GOD'S LIST FOR ME?

(yes, I'm typing in caps because I am stressed out 
and that's what we do online when we are stressed out!)


Frank Newsome, a pro bull fighter with the PBR at the RFDTV American

Friday, February 6, 2015

Soar like Eagles

I want to be like the eagle - soaring above the  storm. 
While the ocean may be churning -
While the lightning may be striking - 
While the flood waters are rising -

I am above, seeing the turmoil, feeling the energy and electricity, not emotionless or immune to the activity around me -

But instead of diving down into the pain I am able to soar above and be an encouragement to those around me.  

My actions will cause them to look up at me and in the process look past me to see the heavens opening and the Lord reaching down to help them.

Don't look to me to save you - 
I can't.

Don't look to me to make the change - 
Only God in you can.

Don't look to others to fix the problem -
Only God in you can.

But look up, look in, and then look around and see others who need help and you become the one to rise above and draw people's attention away from the pain, suffering, and tragedy and look towards the Lord and Maker of Heaven and Earth.

Vultures swarm above just looking for something to devour. Lord forgive us for when we have been like the vulture, destroying those around us. Lord help us to be like the eagle and be a light and source of strength as we point to You as the source of all things good.